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For you could not complain afterwards. You surely would not be willing

actually to betray your brother? Besides, no one would believe you. How

should a girl have come alone to visit a solitary man in his lodgings?

So that even if you do sacrifice your brother, you could prove nothing.

It is very difficult to prove an assault, Avdotya Romanovna."

 

"Scoundrel!" whispered Dounia indignantly.

 

"As you like, but observe I was only speaking by way of a general

proposition. It's my personal conviction that you are perfectly

right--violence is hateful. I only spoke to show you that you need have

no remorse even if... you were willing to save your brother of your

own accord, as I suggest to you. You would be simply submitting to

circumstances, to violence, in fact, if we must use that word. Think

about it. Your brother's and your mother's fate are in your hands. I

will be your slave... all my life... I will wait here."

 

Svidrigailov sat down on the sofa about eight steps from Dounia. She had

not the slightest doubt now of his unbending determination. Besides, she

knew him. Suddenly she pulled out of her pocket a revolver, cocked it

and laid it in her hand on the table. Svidrigailov jumped up.

 

"Aha! So that's it, is it?" he cried, surprised but smiling maliciously.

"Well, that completely alters the aspect of affairs. You've made things

wonderfully easier for me, Avdotya Romanovna. But where did you get the

revolver? Was it Mr. Razumihin? Why, it's my revolver, an old friend!

And how I've hunted for it! The shooting lessons I've given you in the

country have not been thrown away."

 

"It's not your revolver, it belonged to Marfa Petrovna, whom you killed,

wretch! There was nothing of yours in her house. I took it when I began

to suspect what you were capable of. If you dare to advance one step, I

swear I'll kill you." She was frantic.

 

"But your brother? I ask from curiosity," said Svidrigailov, still

standing where he was.

 

"Inform, if you want to! Don't stir! Don't come nearer! I'll shoot! You

poisoned your wife, I know; you are a murderer yourself!" She held the

revolver ready.

 

"Are you so positive I poisoned Marfa Petrovna?"

 

"You did! You hinted it yourself; you talked to me of poison.... I know

you went to get it... you had it in readiness.... It was your doing....

It must have been your doing.... Scoundrel!"

 

"Even if that were true, it would have been for your sake... you would

have been the cause."

 

"You are lying! I hated you always, always...."

 

"Oho, Avdotya Romanovna! You seem to have forgotten how you softened

to me in the heat of propaganda. I saw it in your eyes. Do you remember

that moonlight night, when the nightingale was singing?"

 

"That's a lie," there was a flash of fury in Dounia's eyes, "that's a



lie and a libel!"

 

"A lie? Well, if you like, it's a lie. I made it up. Women ought not

to be reminded of such things," he smiled. "I know you will shoot, you

pretty wild creature. Well, shoot away!"

 

Dounia raised the revolver, and deadly pale, gazed at him, measuring the

distance and awaiting the first movement on his part. Her lower lip was

white and quivering and her big black eyes flashed like fire. He had

never seen her so handsome. The fire glowing in her eyes at the moment

she raised the revolver seemed to kindle him and there was a pang of

anguish in his heart. He took a step forward and a shot rang out. The

bullet grazed his hair and flew into the wall behind. He stood still and

laughed softly.

 

"The wasp has stung me. She aimed straight at my head. What's this?

Blood?" he pulled out his handkerchief to wipe the blood, which flowed

in a thin stream down his right temple. The bullet seemed to have just

grazed the skin.

 

Dounia lowered the revolver and looked at Svidrigailov not so much in

terror as in a sort of wild amazement. She seemed not to understand what

she was doing and what was going on.

 

"Well, you missed! Fire again, I'll wait," said Svidrigailov softly,

still smiling, but gloomily. "If you go on like that, I shall have time

to seize you before you cock again."

 

Dounia started, quickly cocked the pistol and again raised it.

 

"Let me be," she cried in despair. "I swear I'll shoot again. I... I'll

kill you."

 

"Well... at three paces you can hardly help it. But if you don't...

then." His eyes flashed and he took two steps forward. Dounia shot

again: it missed fire.

 

"You haven't loaded it properly. Never mind, you have another charge

there. Get it ready, I'll wait."

 

He stood facing her, two paces away, waiting and gazing at her with wild

determination, with feverishly passionate, stubborn, set eyes. Dounia

saw that he would sooner die than let her go. "And... now, of course she

would kill him, at two paces!" Suddenly she flung away the revolver.

 

"She's dropped it!" said Svidrigailov with surprise, and he drew a deep

breath. A weight seemed to have rolled from his heart--perhaps not only

the fear of death; indeed he may scarcely have felt it at that moment.

It was the deliverance from another feeling, darker and more bitter,

which he could not himself have defined.

 

He went to Dounia and gently put his arm round her waist. She did not

resist, but, trembling like a leaf, looked at him with suppliant eyes.

He tried to say something, but his lips moved without being able to

utter a sound.

 

"Let me go," Dounia implored. Svidrigailov shuddered. Her voice now was

quite different.

 

"Then you don't love me?" he asked softly. Dounia shook her head.

 

"And... and you can't? Never?" he whispered in despair.

 

"Never!"

 

There followed a moment of terrible, dumb struggle in the heart of

Svidrigailov. He looked at her with an indescribable gaze. Suddenly

he withdrew his arm, turned quickly to the window and stood facing it.

Another moment passed.

 

"Here's the key."

 

He took it out of the left pocket of his coat and laid it on the table

behind him, without turning or looking at Dounia.

 

"Take it! Make haste!"

 

He looked stubbornly out of the window. Dounia went up to the table to

take the key.

 

"Make haste! Make haste!" repeated Svidrigailov, still without turning

or moving. But there seemed a terrible significance in the tone of that

"make haste."

 

Dounia understood it, snatched up the key, flew to the door, unlocked it

quickly and rushed out of the room. A minute later, beside herself, she

ran out on to the canal bank in the direction of X. Bridge.

 

Svidrigailov remained three minutes standing at the window. At last he

slowly turned, looked about him and passed his hand over his forehead. A

strange smile contorted his face, a pitiful, sad, weak smile, a smile of

despair. The blood, which was already getting dry, smeared his hand.

He looked angrily at it, then wetted a towel and washed his temple.

The revolver which Dounia had flung away lay near the door and suddenly

caught his eye. He picked it up and examined it. It was a little pocket

three-barrel revolver of old-fashioned construction. There were still

two charges and one capsule left in it. It could be fired again. He

thought a little, put the revolver in his pocket, took his hat and went

out.

 

CHAPTER VI

 

He spent that evening till ten o'clock going from one low haunt to

another. Katia too turned up and sang another gutter song, how a certain

"villain and tyrant,"

 

"began kissing Katia."

 

Svidrigailov treated Katia and the organ-grinder and some singers and

the waiters and two little clerks. He was particularly drawn to these

clerks by the fact that they both had crooked noses, one bent to the

left and the other to the right. They took him finally to a pleasure

garden, where he paid for their entrance. There was one lanky

three-year-old pine-tree and three bushes in the garden, besides a

"Vauxhall," which was in reality a drinking-bar where tea too was

served, and there were a few green tables and chairs standing round it.

A chorus of wretched singers and a drunken but exceedingly depressed

German clown from Munich with a red nose entertained the public. The

clerks quarrelled with some other clerks and a fight seemed imminent.

Svidrigailov was chosen to decide the dispute. He listened to them for

a quarter of an hour, but they shouted so loud that there was no

possibility of understanding them. The only fact that seemed certain was

that one of them had stolen something and had even succeeded in

selling it on the spot to a Jew, but would not share the spoil with his

companion. Finally it appeared that the stolen object was a teaspoon

belonging to the Vauxhall. It was missed and the affair began to seem

troublesome. Svidrigailov paid for the spoon, got up, and walked out of

the garden. It was about six o'clock. He had not drunk a drop of wine

all this time and had ordered tea more for the sake of appearances than

anything.

 

It was a dark and stifling evening. Threatening storm-clouds came over

the sky about ten o'clock. There was a clap of thunder, and the rain

came down like a waterfall. The water fell not in drops, but beat on the

earth in streams. There were flashes of lightning every minute and each

flash lasted while one could count five.

 

Drenched to the skin, he went home, locked himself in, opened the

bureau, took out all his money and tore up two or three papers. Then,

putting the money in his pocket, he was about to change his clothes,

but, looking out of the window and listening to the thunder and the

rain, he gave up the idea, took up his hat and went out of the room

without locking the door. He went straight to Sonia. She was at home.

 

She was not alone: the four Kapernaumov children were with her. She

was giving them tea. She received Svidrigailov in respectful silence,

looking wonderingly at his soaking clothes. The children all ran away at

once in indescribable terror.

 

Svidrigailov sat down at the table and asked Sonia to sit beside him.

She timidly prepared to listen.

 

"I may be going to America, Sofya Semyonovna," said Svidrigailov, "and

as I am probably seeing you for the last time, I have come to make some

arrangements. Well, did you see the lady to-day? I know what she said to

you, you need not tell me." (Sonia made a movement and blushed.) "Those

people have their own way of doing things. As to your sisters and your

brother, they are really provided for and the money assigned to them

I've put into safe keeping and have received acknowledgments. You had

better take charge of the receipts, in case anything happens. Here, take

them! Well now, that's settled. Here are three 5-per-cent bonds to the

value of three thousand roubles. Take those for yourself, entirely for

yourself, and let that be strictly between ourselves, so that no one

knows of it, whatever you hear. You will need the money, for to go on

living in the old way, Sofya Semyonovna, is bad, and besides there is no

need for it now."

 

"I am so much indebted to you, and so are the children and my

stepmother," said Sonia hurriedly, "and if I've said so little... please

don't consider..."

 

"That's enough! that's enough!"

 

"But as for the money, Arkady Ivanovitch, I am very grateful to you,

but I don't need it now. I can always earn my own living. Don't think me

ungrateful. If you are so charitable, that money...."

 

"It's for you, for you, Sofya Semyonovna, and please don't waste words

over it. I haven't time for it. You will want it. Rodion Romanovitch

has two alternatives: a bullet in the brain or Siberia." (Sonia looked

wildly at him, and started.) "Don't be uneasy, I know all about it from

himself and I am not a gossip; I won't tell anyone. It was good advice

when you told him to give himself up and confess. It would be much

better for him. Well, if it turns out to be Siberia, he will go and

you will follow him. That's so, isn't it? And if so, you'll need money.

You'll need it for him, do you understand? Giving it to you is the same

as my giving it to him. Besides, you promised Amalia Ivanovna to pay

what's owing. I heard you. How can you undertake such obligations so

heedlessly, Sofya Semyonovna? It was Katerina Ivanovna's debt and not

yours, so you ought not to have taken any notice of the German woman.

You can't get through the world like that. If you are ever questioned

about me--to-morrow or the day after you will be asked--don't say

anything about my coming to see you now and don't show the money to

anyone or say a word about it. Well, now good-bye." (He got up.) "My

greetings to Rodion Romanovitch. By the way, you'd better put the money

for the present in Mr. Razumihin's keeping. You know Mr. Razumihin? Of

course you do. He's not a bad fellow. Take it to him to-morrow or...

when the time comes. And till then, hide it carefully."

 

Sonia too jumped up from her chair and looked in dismay at Svidrigailov.

She longed to speak, to ask a question, but for the first moments she

did not dare and did not know how to begin.

 

"How can you... how can you be going now, in such rain?"

 

"Why, be starting for America, and be stopped by rain! Ha, ha! Good-bye,

Sofya Semyonovna, my dear! Live and live long, you will be of use to

others. By the way... tell Mr. Razumihin I send my greetings to him.

Tell him Arkady Ivanovitch Svidrigailov sends his greetings. Be sure

to."

 

He went out, leaving Sonia in a state of wondering anxiety and vague

apprehension.

 

It appeared afterwards that on the same evening, at twenty past eleven,

he made another very eccentric and unexpected visit. The rain still

persisted. Drenched to the skin, he walked into the little flat where

the parents of his betrothed lived, in Third Street in Vassilyevsky

Island. He knocked some time before he was admitted, and his visit

at first caused great perturbation; but Svidrigailov could be

very fascinating when he liked, so that the first, and indeed very

intelligent surmise of the sensible parents that Svidrigailov had

probably had so much to drink that he did not know what he was doing

vanished immediately. The decrepit father was wheeled in to see

Svidrigailov by the tender and sensible mother, who as usual began the

conversation with various irrelevant questions. She never asked a direct

question, but began by smiling and rubbing her hands and then, if she

were obliged to ascertain something--for instance, when Svidrigailov

would like to have the wedding--she would begin by interested and

almost eager questions about Paris and the court life there, and only

by degrees brought the conversation round to Third Street. On other

occasions this had of course been very impressive, but this time Arkady

Ivanovitch seemed particularly impatient, and insisted on seeing his

betrothed at once, though he had been informed, to begin with, that she

had already gone to bed. The girl of course appeared.

 

Svidrigailov informed her at once that he was obliged by very important

affairs to leave Petersburg for a time, and therefore brought her

fifteen thousand roubles and begged her accept them as a present from

him, as he had long been intending to make her this trifling present

before their wedding. The logical connection of the present with his

immediate departure and the absolute necessity of visiting them for that

purpose in pouring rain at midnight was not made clear. But it all went

off very well; even the inevitable ejaculations of wonder and regret,

the inevitable questions were extraordinarily few and restrained. On the

other hand, the gratitude expressed was most glowing and was reinforced

by tears from the most sensible of mothers. Svidrigailov got up,

laughed, kissed his betrothed, patted her cheek, declared he would soon

come back, and noticing in her eyes, together with childish curiosity, a

sort of earnest dumb inquiry, reflected and kissed her again, though

he felt sincere anger inwardly at the thought that his present would be

immediately locked up in the keeping of the most sensible of mothers. He

went away, leaving them all in a state of extraordinary excitement, but

the tender mamma, speaking quietly in a half whisper, settled some of

the most important of their doubts, concluding that Svidrigailov was

a great man, a man of great affairs and connections and of great

wealth--there was no knowing what he had in his mind. He would start

off on a journey and give away money just as the fancy took him, so that

there was nothing surprising about it. Of course it was strange that he

was wet through, but Englishmen, for instance, are even more eccentric,

and all these people of high society didn't think of what was said of

them and didn't stand on ceremony. Possibly, indeed, he came like that

on purpose to show that he was not afraid of anyone. Above all, not a

word should be said about it, for God knows what might come of it, and

the money must be locked up, and it was most fortunate that Fedosya, the

cook, had not left the kitchen. And above all not a word must be said

to that old cat, Madame Resslich, and so on and so on. They sat up

whispering till two o'clock, but the girl went to bed much earlier,

amazed and rather sorrowful.

 

Svidrigailov meanwhile, exactly at midnight, crossed the bridge on the

way back to the mainland. The rain had ceased and there was a roaring

wind. He began shivering, and for one moment he gazed at the black

waters of the Little Neva with a look of special interest, even inquiry.

But he soon felt it very cold, standing by the water; he turned and

went towards Y. Prospect. He walked along that endless street for a long

time, almost half an hour, more than once stumbling in the dark on the

wooden pavement, but continually looking for something on the right side

of the street. He had noticed passing through this street lately that

there was a hotel somewhere towards the end, built of wood, but fairly

large, and its name he remembered was something like Adrianople. He was

not mistaken: the hotel was so conspicuous in that God-forsaken place

that he could not fail to see it even in the dark. It was a long,

blackened wooden building, and in spite of the late hour there were

lights in the windows and signs of life within. He went in and asked

a ragged fellow who met him in the corridor for a room. The latter,

scanning Svidrigailov, pulled himself together and led him at once to a

close and tiny room in the distance, at the end of the corridor, under

the stairs. There was no other, all were occupied. The ragged fellow

looked inquiringly.

 

"Is there tea?" asked Svidrigailov.

 

"Yes, sir."

 

"What else is there?"

 

"Veal, vodka, savouries."

 

"Bring me tea and veal."

 

"And you want nothing else?" he asked with apparent surprise.

 

"Nothing, nothing."

 

The ragged man went away, completely disillusioned.

 

"It must be a nice place," thought Svidrigailov. "How was it I didn't

know it? I expect I look as if I came from a cafe chantant and have

had some adventure on the way. It would be interesting to know who stay

here?"

 

He lighted the candle and looked at the room more carefully. It was a

room so low-pitched that Svidrigailov could only just stand up in it;

it had one window; the bed, which was very dirty, and the plain-stained

chair and table almost filled it up. The walls looked as though they

were made of planks, covered with shabby paper, so torn and dusty

that the pattern was indistinguishable, though the general

colour--yellow--could still be made out. One of the walls was cut short

by the sloping ceiling, though the room was not an attic but just under

the stairs.

 

Svidrigailov set down the candle, sat down on the bed and sank into

thought. But a strange persistent murmur which sometimes rose to a shout

in the next room attracted his attention. The murmur had not ceased from

the moment he entered the room. He listened: someone was upbraiding and

almost tearfully scolding, but he heard only one voice.

 

Svidrigailov got up, shaded the light with his hand and at once he saw

light through a crack in the wall; he went up and peeped through. The

room, which was somewhat larger than his, had two occupants. One of

them, a very curly-headed man with a red inflamed face, was standing

in the pose of an orator, without his coat, with his legs wide apart to

preserve his balance, and smiting himself on the breast. He reproached

the other with being a beggar, with having no standing whatever. He

declared that he had taken the other out of the gutter and he could turn

him out when he liked, and that only the finger of Providence sees it

all. The object of his reproaches was sitting in a chair, and had the

air of a man who wants dreadfully to sneeze, but can't. He sometimes

turned sheepish and befogged eyes on the speaker, but obviously had not

the slightest idea what he was talking about and scarcely heard it. A

candle was burning down on the table; there were wine-glasses, a nearly

empty bottle of vodka, bread and cucumber, and glasses with the dregs

of stale tea. After gazing attentively at this, Svidrigailov turned away

indifferently and sat down on the bed.

 

The ragged attendant, returning with the tea, could not resist asking

him again whether he didn't want anything more, and again receiving a

negative reply, finally withdrew. Svidrigailov made haste to drink a

glass of tea to warm himself, but could not eat anything. He began

to feel feverish. He took off his coat and, wrapping himself in the

blanket, lay down on the bed. He was annoyed. "It would have been better

to be well for the occasion," he thought with a smile. The room was

close, the candle burnt dimly, the wind was roaring outside, he heard

a mouse scratching in the corner and the room smelt of mice and of

leather. He lay in a sort of reverie: one thought followed another. He

felt a longing to fix his imagination on something. "It must be a garden

under the window," he thought. "There's a sound of trees. How I dislike

the sound of trees on a stormy night, in the dark! They give one a

horrid feeling." He remembered how he had disliked it when he passed

Petrovsky Park just now. This reminded him of the bridge over the Little

Neva and he felt cold again as he had when standing there. "I never have

liked water," he thought, "even in a landscape," and he suddenly smiled

again at a strange idea: "Surely now all these questions of taste and

comfort ought not to matter, but I've become more particular, like an

animal that picks out a special place... for such an occasion. I ought

to have gone into the Petrovsky Park! I suppose it seemed dark, cold,

ha-ha! As though I were seeking pleasant sensations!... By the way, why

haven't I put out the candle?" he blew it out. "They've gone to bed next

door," he thought, not seeing the light at the crack. "Well, now, Marfa

Petrovna, now is the time for you to turn up; it's dark, and the very

time and place for you. But now you won't come!"

 

He suddenly recalled how, an hour before carrying out his design on

Dounia, he had recommended Raskolnikov to trust her to Razumihin's

keeping. "I suppose I really did say it, as Raskolnikov guessed, to

tease myself. But what a rogue that Raskolnikov is! He's gone through a

good deal. He may be a successful rogue in time when he's got over

his nonsense. But now he's _too_ eager for life. These young men

are contemptible on that point. But, hang the fellow! Let him please

himself, it's nothing to do with me."

 

He could not get to sleep. By degrees Dounia's image rose before him,

and a shudder ran over him. "No, I must give up all that now," he

thought, rousing himself. "I must think of something else. It's queer

and funny. I never had a great hatred for anyone, I never particularly

desired to avenge myself even, and that's a bad sign, a bad sign, a bad

sign. I never liked quarrelling either, and never lost my temper--that's

a bad sign too. And the promises I made her just now, too--Damnation!

But--who knows?--perhaps she would have made a new man of me

somehow...."

 

He ground his teeth and sank into silence again. Again Dounia's image

rose before him, just as she was when, after shooting the first time,

she had lowered the revolver in terror and gazed blankly at him, so that

he might have seized her twice over and she would not have lifted a hand

to defend herself if he had not reminded her. He recalled how at that

instant he felt almost sorry for her, how he had felt a pang at his

heart...

 

"Aie! Damnation, these thoughts again! I must put it away!"

 

He was dozing off; the feverish shiver had ceased, when suddenly

something seemed to run over his arm and leg under the bedclothes. He

started. "Ugh! hang it! I believe it's a mouse," he thought, "that's the

veal I left on the table." He felt fearfully disinclined to pull off the

blanket, get up, get cold, but all at once something unpleasant ran over

his leg again. He pulled off the blanket and lighted the candle. Shaking

with feverish chill he bent down to examine the bed: there was nothing.

He shook the blanket and suddenly a mouse jumped out on the sheet.

He tried to catch it, but the mouse ran to and fro in zigzags without

leaving the bed, slipped between his fingers, ran over his hand and

suddenly darted under the pillow. He threw down the pillow, but in one

instant felt something leap on his chest and dart over his body and down


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