THIRTY-SEVEN

MIST SHROUDED THE GROUND, MUFFLING THE SOUNDS OF the world. She couldn't see anyone else around. She could have been anywhere or nowhere. It didn't matter. Charlie was gone, her father had never come to greet her, and she was all alone.

Ever since leaving the cemetery, she had been in this same place. It was like the deep ocean on a moonless night. The sky was a blanket of black without familiar stars to give her bearings. In the distance, vague shapes like thunderheads seemed to shift about. Sometimes voices emerged around her, then went away.

She had tried to call for help but no one answered. She wanted to cut through the gloom but couldn't seem to budge. And so she had waited, watching for the moment to make her move.

Now was the time.

At first, with darkness slowly giving way to light, everything was blurry. Her brain, the room, and the man looking down at her. "Tess," he kept saying. "Tess, can you hear me?" Of course she could hear him. She wanted to form words in response, but she couldn't make sounds. How strange. She tried again, but her mouth and throat were parched. When at last she found her voice, it was raspy and barely audible. "Tess," she said. "Tess."

"Yes, Tess!" the man said. He was so excited.

"Yes, Tess," she repeated.

"You're back! My God, you're back!"

"You're back," she said. She knew she was just repeating his words, but it was the best she could do.

"How do you feel?" he was saying. "Does anything hurt?"

In fact, she couldn't feel a thing. Her body was numb and her head groggy. She moved her eyes around the room. "Where?" she began tentatively. "Where am I?" That wasn't bad, she thought. Where am I? A complete sentence. She smiled faintly, and the skin on her cheeks felt tight.

"You're in the hospital," he said. "North Shore Medical Center in Salem."

The words didn't register entirely. "Where?" she said again.

"The hospital. You had an accident. You were injured. But everything's okay now."

Hospital. Accident. Injured.

"What accident?" she said.

"You were sailing," he said. "Your boat caught fire in a storm. Do you remember?"

Fire. Storm. She didn't recall a thing. "Boat," she said. "What happened?"

"It was destroyed," he said. "I'm sorry, but Querencia burned and sank."

Querencia. She liked the way that sounded, and the lilt of the syllables brought back fragments of memory and meaning. "Querencia. Spanish, safe place."

"Yes!" the man said. "You're right. It's Spanish."

She was trying to focus. More thoughts were taking shape.

"Water," she said. "I'm thirsty."

The man hurried to the sink and poured her a glass. Gently, he held it to her lips, and she took a sip, swirling the cool liquid in her mouth. She squinted toward the window, where the branches of a tree were blowing in the wind. "Window," she said.

"Yes, window."

"Open it, please."

The man rushed over, threw the bolt, and slid it up. "There you go."

An amazing breeze wafted into the room, and Tess closed her eyes as it rustled her hair and soothed her. Water and wind. Yes, she loved them both.

The man reached for the phone. "I'm calling your mom. Okay?"

"Okay," she said. "Mom."

The man punched the numbers and began to speak rapidly. She couldn't follow what he was saying. When he put it down, she asked, "Who are you? Doctor?"

"It's me, Charlie. Remember?"

She didn't remember. Her memory was blank.

"Tess, please, try to think back," he was saying. "It's me, Charlie."

She shook her head. "I'm sorry, I just don't remember . . ." Then she saw tears streaming down his face. Why was he crying? "What's wrong?" she said.

"Nothing's wrong. I'm just so happy to see you."

Tess smiled, and this time her face didn't feel so taut. "Your name?" she said. "What's your name?"

"Charlie St. Cloud."

Charlie St. Cloud. She crinkled her nose. Things were coming back faster now. Files were opening in her brain. "St. Cloud," she said. "Not a Marblehead name."

"You're right," he answered. "Minnesota. Long story too."

"I like stories," she said.

And then Charlie sat down beside her and explained how his name came from a Mississippi River town where his mother had grown up. The original St. Cloud was a sixth-century French prince who renounced the world to serve God after his brothers were murdered by an evil uncle.

Tess liked the deep timbre of his voice. It reminded her of someone but she couldn't place it. When he was done telling her the story, she reached out and touched his hand. It felt so warm and strong.

"The Patriots have a big game this weekend," he was saying. "You love football, remember?" She studied his gentle face with a dimple in one cheek. There was something different about this man.

"Tell me another story, Charlie."

"Anything you want," he said, and he began to talk of sailing around the world to distant places like the Marquesas, Tuamotu Islands, Tonga, and Fiji.

Every word came like comfort, so she eased back into the pillows and basked in the warmth of Charlie's caramel eyes. Slowly, her edges began to soften, and she wondered how she already knew that she could listen to this man for a very long time.

It was past midnight.

The doctors had finished checking Tess and, incredibly, had determined that her physical and cognitive functions were intact, and her memory would likely return to normal.

A writer and photographer from the Reporter had rushed over to ask questions and snap pictures for a special edition of the paper. Tink and the crew from the sail loft had paraded through with encouragement and news from the company. Her joy exceeding her energy, Grace had finally gone to sleep on a pullout cot in the next room.

Now all was quiet.

Wide awake in the waiting room, Charlie stared at the fish tank with its neon tetras darting back and forth. Grateful as he was that she was back, his mind stuck on one question: Would she remember him?

Their first kiss . . .

Their night in each other's arms . . .

As friends and family surrounded her that evening, Charlie had watched as she gradually recalled Querencia's struggle against the storm. She had even started planning her next solo race around the world, calculating that it would take one year to outfit a new boat and to train properly. Whenever her gaze turned to Charlie in the back of the room--and it was often--she had smiled but seemed unsure who he was or why he was there.

Who could blame her?

The doors opened across the waiting room, and a nurse beckoned in a hushed voice, "She's asking

for you, Charlie."

"What?"

"She wants to see you."

He covered the distance to her bedside in what seemed like five steps. Amazingly, she was sitting up, her face softly illuminated by the night-light. "I'm glad you're still here," she said.

"I'm glad you are too," Charlie answered.

She was studying him intensely. Finally she said, "So you're the one who found me."

"I guess that's true."

"After everyone had given up?"

"Pretty much."

"I need to know something," she said. "It's important."

"Yes, I confess, I'm a Red Sox fan," he said with a smile.

She threw her head back and laughed. "I can forgive that," she said, "but there's one thing I can't remember."

"What's that?"

"How we met."

"You wouldn't believe me if I told you."

"Try me," she said. "Tell me our story."

"Well," he recalled, "it starts in Waterside Cemetery where a brave and beautiful sailmaker complained to the caretaker about a disturbance of the peace." Charlie smiled. "The charming fellow tried to explain the importance of his geese-management program, but the unimpressed sailor only laughed."

And so Charlie tenderly described their first encounters from a candlelit dinner with a Ted Williams cake to a midnight walk with weeping willows and a marble mausoleum. As her eyes registered every detail, he was filled with hope. He had let go of the past and reclaimed his life. And now, the greatest blessing of all, he and Tess were starting over.

Date: 2014-12-29; view: 670