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temper, or desire flared to life.
“You look ravishing.”
His low growl let me know which
emotion heated him now, and once again I
shivered. My feelings for him might be
rife with doubt, but my body wasn’t
conflicted. I’d moved closer before I
realized it, my nipples puckering as soon
as his chest brushed mine. Then something
lower in me clenched as his mouth grazed
my neck, that thick stubble deliciously
chafing my skin.
He inhaled, air landing like the softest
of kisses on my pulse when he let it out.
Then his hands closed over my shoulders,
their heat wonderfully potent. A flick of
his fingers pushed my hair aside, exposing
my neck. I gasped as his mouth lowered
and two hard, sharp fangs pressed against
my skin. The dark rapture of his bite was
second only to making love to him, and I’d
missed partaking of both recently. Without
thought, I gripped his head closer, almost
shuddering in anticipation.
He muttered something unintelligible
and drew away, his gaze still lit up with
emerald.
“Not now. Our guests are waiting.”
I don’t care! was my first thought,
followed immediately by What is wrong
with me? Yes, people were waiting for
us, not to mention several guards lurked in
this hallway. Even if none of the above
were true, I had serious issues to work out
with Vlad. Assuaging my libido should be
the last thing on my to-do list.
“Right,” I said, dropping my hands and
stepping away. I didn’t look at him as I
brushed my hair back over my shoulder,
covering as much of the zigzagging scar as
I could. I wasn’t ashamed, but the
inevitable pitying glances from people
who saw it for the first time got old.
“Leila.”
The way he said my name made me jerk
my head up. Vlad’s eyes had changed back
to burnished mahogany, the only green in
them now the natural ring that encircled
his irises.
“Don’t hide for anyone,” he stated,
pushing my hair off my shoulder. “Only
fools pity survivors their scars and you
should never kowtow to fools.”
Then he held out his hand, his own
faded battle wounds crisscrossing his
flesh like tiny pale stripes. “Come.”
I took his hand, forcing back the
emotion that constricted my heart with
invisible bands. Then I began reciting
songs in my head, masking the most
dangerous thought before it reached him.
That’s one of the reasons I love you.
You bend for no one.
Unfortunately, that same trait might also
tear us apart.
Chapter 3
As it turned out, I recognized some of our
guests, though a lot of new faces were
also present. Maximus sat at the dining
table next to Shrapnel, Vlad’s bald, beefy
third-in-command. Next to him was
Mencheres, the long-haired Egyptian
vampire Vlad described as his honorary
sire, a title I still didn’t fully understand.
The slender blonde next to Mencheres
was his wife, Kira. Gretchen was there,
too, seated farthest from the head and
looking miffed about it. Everyone rose
when Vlad and I entered, which made the
whole scenario odder. I hadn’t been late,
so why was everybody at the table
already? Weren’t the host and hostess
supposed to greet guests before they took
their seats, not arrive last and have
everyone stand at attention before them?
Vampires, I decided for the umpteenth
time, had the weirdest way of doing
things.
Vlad led me to my usual spot at the
head of the table, which caused a few
slanted glances among the guests that I
didn’t recognize. Once there, I stood at the
empty chair to his right, uncertain. Did I
sit now, or wait for a signal?
“I am glad that you have come,” Vlad
stated, the size of the room not diminishing
the strong tenor of his voice. “I know
some of you traveled a great distance to
be here.”
I expected more, maybe a thank-you to
those faraway guests, but then he lowered
himself into his chair. Before Vlad, I’d
never guessed that the simple act of sitting
could look regal and intimidating, yet he
pulled it off every time.
Everybody else took their seats, so I
did, too, wishing I’d been given an
Undead Etiquette for Dummies manual.
From the too-fluid way they moved, none
of his guests were human. I was used to
being around vamps in a casual setting—
or a violent one—but this was my first
formal event. If I screw anything up, it’s
on you, I thought to Vlad while affixing a
pleasant smile on my face.
His mouth twitched, the only indication
that he heard me. Then he gestured to his
left.
“Leila, you already know Maximus,
Shrapnel, Mencheres, and Kira, but let me
introduce the rest of our guests.”
I kept that pleasant smile throughout a
list of names I hoped I wasn’t expected to
remember, because all twenty-eight seats
at the huge table were filled. When I’d
first seen the dining room with its wall of
fireplaces, three-story ceiling, and
gargantuan chandelier, I’d thought it was a
dazzling waste of space since only me and
Vlad ate here. Now its size and splendor
came in handy. We would’ve needed
another table if he’d invited more friends,
and judging from the women’s jewels and
the men’s resplendent tuxedos, those
present were used to luxury.
I wasn’t. Neither was Gretchen, who
looked as ill at ease as I felt. Our father
had been a career military man, so we’d
grown up in modest surroundings that
frequently varied depending on his change
of duty stations. When I struck out on my
own at eighteen, I’d scrounged for jobs
that didn’t involve technology or touching
people—and all decent-paying jobs
required one or the other. If I hadn’t met
Marty and joined his traveling carnival
act, I might have ended up on the streets.
I certainly wouldn’t have wound up at
Vlad’s, smiling at strangers through a sea
of crystal glasses that servants filled with
a dark red liquid too thick to be wine.
Those same servants then brought out
enough food to feed everyone twice over
despite Gretchen and I being the only
humans. Nerves had stolen my appetite but
I dug in with feigned gusto, wondering
when Vlad would reveal the true purpose
behind this occasion. He didn’t invite
over two dozen people to his house
merely to show off. Vlad was many things,
but pretentious wasn’t one of them.
The bombshell behind this event
dropped during dessert. I’d just helped
myself to a spoonful of bourbon
butterscotch crème brûlée when Vlad
stood and all chatter stopped.
“Thank you all for coming,” he said in
the sudden silence. “As you are either
friends or honored members of my line, I
wanted each of you to witness my actions
now.”
Then he moved behind my chair, resting
his hand on my shoulder. I resisted the
urge to twist around so I could see him.
What’s going on? I thought nervously.
He ignored the question. “Most of you
know that Leila has been my lover for the
past few months. In addition, she also
risked her life to save my people and
demonstrated unwavering loyalty even
during torture. Because of her great value
to me, I now offer her an eternal bond, if
she accepts.”
Then he leaned down, breath warm on
my neck as he whispered his next words.
“You’ve wondered if I felt differently
about you since your abilities diminished.
Let this serve as your answer.”
I caught a glimpse of his scarred hand
before he placed a small velvet box in
front of me. My heart started to pound
while my mind overloaded with shock and
joy. At the far end of the table, I heard
Gretchen gasp. Out of all possible reasons
behind the surprise fancy dinner, I hadn’t
expected this. Things had indeed changed
between us, in the best way possible.
“Vlad, I . . .”
Coherent thought and words might have
failed me, but my motor skills didn’t. With
hands trembling from joy, I slowly opened
the ebony box.
Gretchen rocketed out of her chair to
come toward me. At some point, happy
tears must’ve sprung to my eyes because
the box’s content was blurry. Still, I could
make out a ring. An avalanche of
happiness swept over me. It wasn’t until
now that I realized how much I loved Vlad
and how fervently I’d hoped that he loved
me, too. I blinked to see the ring more
clearly . . . and then my elation became
tempered with confusion.
Maximus caught Gretchen’s arm before
she reached me, but she was still close
enough to get a look inside the box.
“You cheapskate, that’s not a
diamond!” she announced with her usual
tactlessness. “What kind of engagement
ring is that?”
I’d wondered at his choice, too, since I
recognized the ring as a replica of the
heirloom that had been passed down from
Vlad’s father to him. No matter, I’d
cherish any engagement ring he gave me.
Besides, maybe proposing with a replica
was a Dracul family tradition—
“It’s not an engagement ring,” Vlad
replied crisply to Gretchen. “It’s the
symbol of membership in my line. All the
vampires I’ve made carry one.”
At those words, my ecstatic jumble of
thoughts crystallized into one heartrending
realization: He’s not proposing. He’s
only offering to make you a vampire!
Vlad straightened and his hand left my
shoulder. He’d heard that. With how it had
roared across my mind, he’d have to be
telepathically deaf to have missed it.
I knew I should sing something to keep
him from hearing anything else, but I
couldn’t think up a single verse. My pride
screamed at me to act as though I hadn’t
misunderstood, yet all I could do was
clutch that box while my previous joy
turned to ashes. Nothing had changed
except Vlad thought my humanity needed
an upgrade, and he’d decided to inform
me of that with a roomful of vampires as
witnesses.
I glanced up. Our guests’ gazes skipped
away with pitying quickness while their
uncomfortable shifting told me Vlad
wasn’t alone in figuring out my
misinterpretation. If I hadn’t felt as though
my heart had been ripped out and
flambéed in front of me, I would have
been mortified.
Gretchen’s voice broke the loaded
silence. “You want Leila to become a
vampire? That is so creepy!”
“Maximus,” Vlad bit out.
The brawny vampire had Gretchen
hoisted up with his hand over her mouth
before I could blink. Normally, such
handling of my sister would’ve incensed
me. At the moment, I was trying too hard
to pull myself together to respond.
“Leila,” Vlad began.
“Don’t.”
The word snapped out with all the force
of my shattered hopes. I got up, almost
overturning my chair, but it was either get
out of here now or burst into tears, and I
still had enough pride not to do that in
front of everyone.
“I need some air,” I muttered.
And some razors to finish the job you
started when you were sixteen, my hated
inner voice supplied.
I ignored that, blasting the first song that
came to mind to hide my thoughts. It turned
out to be “Taps.”
Figures.
Then I left as fast as my new high heels
could carry me.
Chapter 4
Iwent straight to the small, rubber-lined
room in the basement level that Vlad had
set up for me. Once inside, I yanked off
my right glove. As soon as I did,
electricity spat out of my hand in sizzling
strands as the emotions I tried to control
manifested in miniature energy bolts. I
gathered those currents into a single
pulsating rope and then whipped it toward
the stone statue in the room.
Its head came off, bouncing onto the
base it was welded to. Another snap of
currents and the statue lost an arm. Then
the other arm. Then everything above the
waist, yet my seething hurt,
disappointment, and humiliation didn’t
lessen. Instead, I felt like I could go
nuclear at any moment.
I didn’t stop lashing the statue until it
lay in dozens of ragged pieces. Before
Vlad, I’d only worked to suppress my
power, much as I’d done with the
loneliness that came from my inability to
touch anyone without harming them.
Vlad had changed all that. He taught me
to turn my abilities into an asset and
awakened feelings in me I’d never thought
to experience. He was more than my first
lover. He was also my first love, yet I’d
let myself fall too deeply. Despite all the
warnings, I’d dared to hope that one day,
he might feel the same way about me. This
is where that hope had led me: to a
basement, taking out my crushed dreams
on an inanimate object.
I looked at the remains of the statue and
felt a grim sort of kinship. Like me, it used
to be solid and whole. Now, also like me,
it was so shredded from destructive
emotions that neither of us would be the
same.
“Damn you,” I whispered, and didn’t
know if it was directed at me, or the
vampire I’d foolishly fallen in love with.
My gorgeous dress was now damp from
my exertions, but I didn’t care. I wasn’t
going back to dinner. Everyone had
figured out the reason why I left so they’d
understand my continued absence. If they
didn’t, screw ’em. I was done being the
evening’s entertainment.
Worn out, I climbed up the multiple
flights of stairs to my room, glad I didn’t
pass anyone along the way. With luck,
Vlad would be up late with his guests and
I wouldn’t see him until tomorrow. It
would give me some much-needed
solitude.
That’s why I groaned when I saw that
my bedroom wasn’t empty. Vlad stood by
the settee, hands clasped behind him, that
cursed jewelry box thankfully out of sight.
A rake of his gaze took in my sweaty,
disheveled appearance.
“Feeling better now?” he asked with his
usual bluntness.
Not even close. Just seeing him
shattered the fragile control my electrical
workout had given me.
“I’m glorious,” I said curtly. “In fact,
aside from intending to get blackout drunk,
I’ve never felt better.”
An emotion I couldn’t name flickered
across his face. Then his expression
became impassive again.
“I regret how tonight turned out. I
should have discussed my offer with you
in private, but I never expected you to
misinterpret it in such a way.”
I don’t know what I’d wanted to hear
after this fiasco, but whatever it was, he’d
missed it by a mile. His ironclad selfcontrol
was also salt on the wound. I was
barely holding myself together, and he’d
never looked more cool and collected.
Anger joined all my other roiling
emotions.
“The dress, the fancy dinner, all your
flattering words, then the jewelry box.” I
ticked the items off on my fingers.
“Really, what was I supposed to think?”
His snort cut me to the bone. “Anything
but that. You and I have been together
mere months. Do you know how
insignificant that is to someone my age?”
A fresh wave of hurt made my tone
scalding. “Yes, you’re almost six hundred
years old, but in today’s world, when you
say things like ‘eternal bond’ before
giving your girlfriend a ring-sized box,
there’s usually only one kind of ring in it!”
“For centuries, every vampire I’ve
made has been given a replica of my ring
because it’s proof of membership in my
line. That’s useful if my people are
captured by allies. Or enemies.”
I believed him, but it did nothing for the
acid continually being poured over my
emotions.
“You don’t get it,” I said sharply. “We
haven’t been together long by my
standards, either, but your scorn at the
thought of marriage shows how
differently we value this relationship.
That’s the real problem, and I can’t ignore
it anymore.”
His mouth tightened and flames erupted
in the fireplace as that shell cracked and
his temper flared. I didn’t care. I was the
one who’d been emotionally filleted in
public and now again in private.
“I do value our relationship. I’ve never
shared my private bedchamber with
anyone except you—”
“Yet you can’t be bothered to install a
toilet,” I interrupted. “It’s like you keep
showing me ‘This far, no farther’ every
chance you get.”
Now his gaze blazed pure emerald, all
traces of copper gone. “I offered a
different solution to that issue tonight.”
Turning me into a vampire would
indeed negate my need for a toilet. It
would also ensure that I spent the rest of
an unnaturally long life loving a man who
never wanted me any closer than arm’s
length. Vlad was known for his
mercilessness, but I didn’t think he
realized what a cruel fate he’d be
sentencing me to if I accepted his offer.
Part of that was my fault. I’d let the
emotional standoff between us go on too
long because I didn’t want to lose him.
Problem was, I never really had him, as
tonight had forced me to acknowledge.
Despite my heart feeling like it split apart
within me, I met his gaze without
flinching.
“It didn’t occur to you that I’d see the
ring as a proposal because you have no
intention of ever offering me a real
commitment. I was okay with that once.
I’m not anymore.”
“You don’t understand.”
His tone was flat even as the flames
nearby shot higher.
“Divorce doesn’t exist for vampires.
With how people can change over time,
few of my kind choose to marry. Feelings
may fade, but a vampire union never
will.”
Then his warm, strong hands cupped my
face.
“I am offering you a real commitment—
a place in my life forever. Even if our
relationship ended, our tie to each other
never would. Let me make you a vampire,
Leila, and watch decades slide by like
days while you’re by my side.”
I wanted to say yes. The word trembled
on my lips, but I forced it back with a
ragged, indrawn breath. He wasn’t
offering me anything different, only a
longer version of what I already had. The
fact that I’d be willing to shed my
humanity like an old suit was proof
enough that I’d do anything for Vlad, yet
he still kept his heart deliberately out of
reach.
I couldn’t live like that, as a human or a
vampire. If it hurt this much now, how
would it feel after decades of loving a
man who regarded me as little more than a
pleasant bedmate?
“I’ll say yes on one condition.”
He caressed my face. “And what is
that?”
I didn’t blink. “You can read my mind
so you should already know. I love you,
Vlad, so more than blood ties or the
chance to live forever, I want you to say
you love me, too.”
His hands dropped to clench into fists
at his side. “We talked about this—”
“I remember,” I cut him off. “The first
night we slept together, you told me you’d
give me passion, honesty, and monogamy,
but not love because you’re incapable of
it. I believed that then, but I call bullshit
now. You remember the last thing Szilagyi
said before he detonated that explosion?”
From the granite set of his jaw, he did,
but he wasn’t going to volunteer it. I
continued on.
“Szilagyi said he was going to kill me
along with him because that would hurt
you. Even your worst enemy could see I
was more than a mistress to you, but you
refuse to offer me anything else. Until you
do, I can’t—”
My voice broke, and despite my
resolve, two tears slipped past my lashes.
I dashed them away, forcing myself to
speak through a throat closed painfully
tight from emotion.
“I can’t be with you,” I summarized. “It
hurts too much to be close to you, but
continually pushed away.”
His expression changed to disbelief.
“You’re leaving me?”
From his tone, the idea was more
shocking than hurtful. Another
sledgehammer hit me in the chest, causing
more tears to leak out that I couldn’t
suppress.
“What choice do I have? I know how
this will end. With my abilities, I’ve
relived it through countless other couples.
I even watched my mother give everything
to a man who kept rating her as secondbest
and I refuse to make that same
mistake.”
Despite knowing every word was true,
I couldn’t stop the spate of thoughts that
ran across my mind.
Tell me you love me and I’ll stay. Hell,
tell me you’ll be open to the IDEA of
loving me and I’ll stay. Tell me anything
except to resign myself to always ranking
a distant second to the coldness you keep
wrapping around your heart.
He didn’t say any of that. Instead, he
said, “It’s not safe. We excavated much of
what’s left of his mountain lair, yet we
still didn’t find Szilagyi’s remains. If he
managed to survive, he’ll come after you.”
That was his biggest concern? Not our
relationship ending, but his enemy using
me against him again? For a moment, I
couldn’t breathe from how savagely that
tore at my heart. I thought I was braced to
handle a rejection. I was so, so wrong.
“Szilagyi’s dead,” I managed hoarsely.
“Even if he did survive, my abilities are
gone. No finding people in the present or
seeing into the future means he’d have no
use for me.”
Tell me that’s not the only reason you
want me to stay! burst across my thoughts
with all of the vehemence of my last hope.
Willpower alone kept me from saying it
aloud.
Vlad only stared at me, his gaze
changing from copper to emerald and back
again while the fire raged on in the hearth.
With every continued moment of silence,
the tears I couldn’t will away kept sliding
down my cheeks.
Then, each movement slicing like
razors across my emotions, he walked to
the door. When he reached it, he paused
for a moment, his hand hovering over the
knob.
Don’t do this! I wanted to scream. I
love you; can’t you even try to let
yourself love me, too?
The fire flared so high that it breached
the grate and licked up the wall, but still
he didn’t speak. When it reached the
ceiling, I started toward it with an
instinctive urge to douse the flames, but
then they vanished in a whoosh that left
nothing more than a trail of smoke.
By the time I turned around, Vlad was
gone.
Chapter 5
The car came to a stop inside the airplane
hangar. I opened the door immediately, not
wanting Maximus or Shrapnel to get it for
me. About ten yards away, a gleaming,
ivory-colored jet waited. Underneath my
misery, I thought that it was a good thing I
was traveling back to the States in Vlad’s
private plane. Even if my electricity
issues magically disappeared, if I tried to
fly commercial, my grim expression
would guarantee that I got “randomly
selected” for a pat-down.
A young, russet-haired man waited on
the rollaway staircase next to the jet, but
upon seeing me, he hurried down.
“Where are your bags, miss?” he asked
in accented English.
“I don’t have any.”
“Yes she does,” Maximus replied,
getting out of the driver’s seat. “They’re in
the trunk.”
Only Gretchen’s presence kept me from
losing my temper. “I told you I didn’t want
any of that stuff. I came with the clothes on
my back and that’s how I intend to leave.”
“You’re taking them, Vlad’s orders,”
Maximus said in a tone that made
Redheaded Man hurry to the back of the
limo. “What you do with them once you’re
home is up to you.”
Vlad must not want any reminders of me
cluttering up his house. He’d once told me
that if I ever wanted out of this
relationship, he’d let me go without
argument. Had to give it to the man for
keeping his word. Not only hadn’t he
argued, I hadn’t seen him since the night
he left my room. He didn’t even say goodbye
before Gretchen and I left for the
airport.
No matter how hard I tried to tell
myself that it was for the best, it hurt more
than anything I’d ever endured.
“Fine,” I said, forcing a smile for
Gretchen’s benefit.
My caustic sister had been
uncharacteristically protective of me the
past couple days. It reminded me of how
close we’d been before the accident that
claimed our mother’s life and gave me my
abilities. I kept telling her I was fine, so I
couldn’t ruin that by informing Maximus
I’d sooner go naked than torture myself
with memories by keeping the things Vlad
had bought me.
Besides, he was right. I could throw
them away later.
“Well . . . good-bye,” I said when
Maximus and the other man finished
transporting our bags from the trunk to the
aircraft.
He smiled slightly. “Not yet. I’m
traveling with you to ensure that you are
delivered safely to Marty.”
Delivered, like a package. Once again I
bit my tongue to keep from losing it in
front of my sister.
Gretchen snorted. “What about me? No
one cares if I make it back to my
apartment in one piece?”
Maximus nodded at the bald, mochaskinned
vampire who got out of the front
of the limo.
“Shrapnel’s taking care of you.”
He grinned, showing his flawless white
teeth. “We didn’t think Marty would want
to see me again.”
Since Shrapnel once tortured Marty,
probably not. Then again, Marty might not
be overjoyed to see me, either. My best
friend and carnival partner had warned me
not to get involved with Vlad. Looked like
I owed Marty an apology. I’d give it to
him, too, probably while falling into his
arms and sobbing. I hadn’t let myself cry
since the night Vlad walked out. With
Marty, however, I could finally quit
pretending that I wasn’t devastated by the
breakup. He’d always been there for me
and I needed him now more than ever.
I cast one final look around, hating that
part of me had hoped Vlad would show
up, saying everything he’d refused to say
before. Then I smiled at Gretchen,
wondering when I’d be able to do that
without it feeling like a lie.
“All right, little sister. Let’s get both of
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