Charles Dickens 40 page

I had spoken the last words he had heard on earth.

Estella was the next to break the silence that ensued be-

tween us.

‘I have very often hoped and intended to come back, but

have been prevented by many circumstances. Poor, poor

old place!’

The silvery mist was touched with the first rays of the

moonlight, and the same rays touched the tears that

dropped from her eyes. Not knowing that I saw them, and

setting herself to get the better of them, she said quietly:

‘Were you wondering, as you walked along, how it came

to be left in this condition?’

‘Yes, Estella.’

‘The ground belongs to me. It is the only possession I have

not relinquished. Everything else has gone from me, little

by little, but I have kept this. It was the subject of the only

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determined resistance I made in all the wretched years.’

‘Is it to be built on?’

‘At last it is. I came here to take leave of it before its change.

And you,’ she said, in a voice of touching interest to a wan-

derer, ‘you live abroad still?’

‘Still.’

‘And do well, I am sure?’

‘I work pretty hard for a sufficient living, and therefore

- Yes, I do well.’

‘I have often thought of you,’ said Estella.

‘Have you?’

‘Of late, very often. There was a long hard time when I

kept far from me, the remembrance, of what I had thrown

away when I was quite ignorant of its worth. But, since my

duty has not been incompatible with the admission of that

remembrance, I have given it a place in my heart.’

‘You have always held your place in my heart,’ I an-

swered.

And we were silent again, until she spoke.

‘I little thought,’ said Estella, ‘that I should take leave of

you in taking leave of this spot. I am very glad to do so.’

‘Glad to part again, Estella? To me, parting is a painful

thing. To me, the remembrance of our last parting has been

ever mournful and painful.’

‘But you said to me,’ returned Estella, very earnestly,

‘God bless you, God forgive you!’ And if you could say that

to me then, you will not hesitate to say that to me now - now,

when suffering has been stronger than all other teaching,

and has taught me to understand what your heart used to

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be. I have been bent and broken, but - I hope - into a better

shape. Be as considerate and good to me as you were, and

tell me we are friends.’

‘We are friends,’ said I, rising and bending over her, as

she rose from the bench.

‘And will continue friends apart,’ said Estella.

I took her hand in mine, and we went out of the ruined

place; and, as the morning mists had risen long ago when

I first left the forge, so, the evening mists were rising now,

and in all the broad expanse of tranquil light they showed

to me, I saw no shadow of another parting from her.

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