Charles Dickens 18 page her face looked to me as if it were all disturbed by fiery air,
like the faces I had seen rise out of the Witches’ caldron.
She set the dish on, touched my guardian quietly on the
arm with a finger to notify that dinner was ready, and van-
ished. We took our seats at the round table, and my guardian
kept Drummle on one side of him, while Startop sat on the
other. It was a noble dish of fish that the housekeeper had
put on table, and we had a joint of equally choice mutton
afterwards, and then an equally choice bird. Sauces, wines,
all the accessories we wanted, and all of the best, were given
out by our host from his dumb-waiter; and when they had
made the circuit of the table, he always put them back again.
Similarly, he dealt us clean plates and knives and forks, for
each course, and dropped those just disused into two bas-
kets on the ground by his chair. No other attendant than
the housekeeper appeared. She set on every dish; and I al-
ways saw in her face, a face rising out of the caldron. Years
afterwards, I made a dreadful likeness of that woman, by
causing a face that had no other natural resemblance to it
than it derived from flowing hair, to pass behind a bowl of
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flaming spirits in a dark room.
Induced to take particular notice of the housekeeper,
both by her own striking appearance and by Wemmick’s
preparation, I observed that whenever she was in the room,
she kept her eyes attentively on my guardian, and that she
would remove her hands from any dish she put before him,
hesitatingly, as if she dreaded his calling her back, and
wanted him to speak when she was nigh, if he had anything
to say. I fancied that I could detect in his manner a con-
sciousness of this, and a purpose of always holding her in
suspense.
Dinner went off gaily, and, although my guardian
seemed to follow rather than originate subjects, I knew that
he wrenched the weakest part of our dispositions out of us.
For myself, I found that I was expressing my tendency to
lavish expenditure, and to patronize Herbert, and to boast
of my great prospects, before I quite knew that I had opened
my lips. It was so with all of us, but with no one more than
Drummle: the development of whose inclination to gird in
a grudging and suspicious way at the rest, was screwed out
of him before the fish was taken off.
It was not then, but when we had got to the cheese, that
our conversation turned upon our rowing feats, and that
Drummle was rallied for coming up behind of a night in
that slow amphibious way of his. Drummle upon this, in-
formed our host that he much preferred our room to our
company, and that as to skill he was more than our mas-
ter, and that as to strength he could scatter us like chaff.
By some invisible agency, my guardian wound him up to
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a pitch little short of ferocity about this trifle; and he fell to
baring and spanning his arm to show how muscular it was,
and we all fell to baring and spanning our arms in a ridicu-
lous manner.
Now, the housekeeper was at that time clearing the ta-
ble; my guardian, taking no heed of her, but with the side
of his face turned from her, was leaning back in his chair
biting the side of his forefinger and showing an interest in
Drummle, that, to me, was quite inexplicable. Suddenly, he
clapped his large hand on the housekeeper’s, like a trap, as
she stretched it across the table. So suddenly and smartly
did he do this, that we all stopped in our foolish conten-
tion.
‘If you talk of strength,’ said Mr. Jaggers, ‘I’ll show you a
wrist. Molly, let them see your wrist.’
Her entrapped hand was on the table, but she had already
put her other hand behind her waist. ‘Master,’ she said, in
a low voice, with her eyes attentively and entreatingly fixed
upon him. ‘Don’t.’
‘I’ll show you a wrist,’ repeated Mr. Jaggers, with an im-
movable determination to show it. ‘Molly, let them see your
wrist.’
‘Master,’ she again murmured. ‘Please!’
‘Molly,’ said Mr. Jaggers, not looking at her, but obsti-
nately looking at the opposite side of the room, ‘let them see
both your wrists. Show them. Come!’
He took his hand from hers, and turned that wrist up on
the table. She brought her other hand from behind her, and
held the two out side by side. The last wrist was much disfig-
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ured - deeply scarred and scarred across and across. When
she held her hands out, she took her eyes from Mr. Jaggers,
and turned them watchfully on every one of the rest of us
in succession.
‘There’s power here,’ said Mr. Jaggers, coolly tracing out
the sinews with his forefinger. ‘Very few men have the pow-
er of wrist that this woman has. It’s remarkable what mere
force of grip there is in these hands. I have had occasion to
notice many hands; but I never saw stronger in that respect,
man’s or woman’s, than these.’
While he said these words in a leisurely critical style, she
continued to look at every one of us in regular succession
as we sat. The moment he ceased, she looked at him again.
‘That’ll do, Molly,’ said Mr. Jaggers, giving her a slight nod;
‘you have been admired, and can go.’ She withdrew her
hands and went out of the room, and Mr. Jaggers, putting
the decanters on from his dumbwaiter, filled his glass and
passed round the wine.
‘At half-past nine, gentlemen,’ said he, ‘we must break up.
Pray make the best use of your time. I am glad to see you all.
Mr. Drummle, I drink to you.’
If his object in singling out Drummle were to bring him
out still more, it perfectly succeeded. In a sulky triumph,
Drummle showed his morose depreciation of the rest of
us, in a more and more offensive degree until he became
downright intolerable. Through all his stages, Mr. Jaggers
followed him with the same strange interest. He actually
seemed to serve as a zest to Mr. Jaggers’s wine.
In our boyish want of discretion I dare say we took too
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much to drink, and I know we talked too much. We became
particularly hot upon some boorish sneer of Drummle’s, to
the effect that we were too free with our money. It led to
my remarking, with more zeal than discretion, that it came
with a bad grace from him, to whom Startop had lent mon-
ey in my presence but a week or so before.
‘Well,’ retorted Drummle; ‘he’ll be paid.’
‘I don’t mean to imply that he won’t,’ said I, ‘but it might
make you hold your tongue about us and our money, I
should think.’
‘You should think!’ retorted Drummle. ‘Oh Lord!’
‘I dare say,’ I went on, meaning to be very severe, ‘that
you wouldn’t lend money to any of us, if we wanted it.’
‘You are right,’ said Drummle. ‘I wouldn’t lend one of
you a sixpence. I wouldn’t lend anybody a sixpence.’
‘Rather mean to borrow under those circumstances, I
should say.’
‘You should say,’ repeated Drummle. ‘Oh Lord!’
This was so very aggravating - the more especially as I
found myself making no way against his surly obtuseness
- that I said, disregarding Herbert’s efforts to check me:
‘Come, Mr. Drummle, since we are on the subject, I’ll tell
you what passed between Herbert here and me, when you
borrowed that money.’
‘I don’t want to know what passed between Herbert there
and you,’ growled Drummle. And I think he added in a
lower growl, that we might both go to the devil and shake
ourselves.
‘I’ll tell you, however,’ said I, ‘whether you want to know
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or not. We said that as you put it in your pocket very glad to
get it, you seemed to be immensely amused at his being so
weak as to lend it.’
Drummle laughed outright, and sat laughing in our fac-
es, with his hands in his pockets and his round shoulders
raised: plainly signifying that it was quite true, and that he
despised us, as asses all.
Hereupon Startop took him in hand, though with a
much better grace than I had shown, and exhorted him
to be a little more agreeable. Startop, being a lively bright
young fellow, and Drummle being the exact opposite, the
latter was always disposed to resent him as a direct person-
al affront. He now retorted in a coarse lumpish way, and
Startop tried to turn the discussion aside with some small
pleasantry that made us all laugh. Resenting this little suc-
cess more than anything, Drummle, without any threat or
warning, pulled his hands out of his pockets, dropped his
round shoulders, swore, took up a large glass, and would
have flung it at his adversary’s head, but for our entertain-
er’s dexterously seizing it at the instant when it was raised
for that purpose.
‘Gentlemen,’ said Mr. Jaggers, deliberately putting down
the glass, and hauling out his gold repeater by its massive
chain, ‘I am exceedingly sorry to announce that it’s half-
past nine.’
On this hint we all rose to depart. Before we got to the
street door, Startop was cheerily calling Drummle ‘old
boy,’ as if nothing had happened. But the old boy was so far
from responding, that he would not even walk to Hammer-
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smith on the same side of the way; so, Herbert and I, who
remained in town, saw them going down the street on op-
posite sides; Startop leading, and Drummle lagging behind
in the shadow of the houses, much as he was wont to follow
in his boat.
As the door was not yet shut, I thought I would leave
Herbert there for a moment, and run up-stairs again to say
a word to my guardian. I found him in his dressing-room
surrounded by his stock of boots, already hard at it, wash-
ing his hands of us.
I told him I had come up again to say how sorry I was
that anything disagreeable should have occurred, and that I
hoped he would not blame me much.
‘Pooh!’ said he, sluicing his face, and speaking through the
water-drops; ‘it’s nothing, Pip. I like that Spider though.’
He had turned towards me now, and was shaking his
head, and blowing, and towelling himself.
‘I am glad you like him, sir,’ said I - ‘but I don’t.’
‘No, no,’ my guardian assented; ‘don’t have too much to
do with him. Keep as clear of him as you can. But I like the
fellow, Pip; he is one of the true sort. Why, if I was a fortune-
teller—‘
Looking out of the towel, he caught my eye.
‘But I am not a fortune-teller,’ he said, letting his head
drop into a festoon of towel, and towelling away at his two
ears. ‘You know what I am, don’t you? Good-night, Pip.’
‘Good-night, sir.’
In about a month after that, the Spider’s time with Mr.
Pocket was up for good, and, to the great relief of all the
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house but Mrs. Pocket, he went home to the family hole.
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Chapter 27
‘MY DEAR MR PIP,
‘I write this by request of Mr. Gargery, for to let you know
that he is going to London in company with Mr. Wopsle
and would be glad if agreeable to be allowed to see you. He
would call at Barnard’s Hotel Tuesday morning 9 o’clock,
when if not agreeable please leave word. Your poor sister is
much the same as when you left. We talk of you in the kitch-
en every night, and wonder what you are saying and doing.
If now considered in the light of a liberty, excuse it for the
love of poor old days. No more, dear Mr. Pip, from
‘Your ever obliged, and affectionate servant,
‘BIDDY.’
‘P.S. He wishes me most particular to write what larks.
He says you will understand. I hope and do not doubt it will
be agreeable to see him even though a gentleman, for you
had ever a good heart, and he is a worthy worthy man. I
have read him all excepting only the last little sentence, and
he wishes me most particular to write again what larks.’
I received this letter by the post on Monday morning,
and therefore its appointment was for next day. Let me con-
fess exactly, with what feelings I looked forward to Joe’s
coming.
Not with pleasure, though I was bound to him by so
many ties; no; with considerable disturbance, some mortifi-
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cation, and a keen sense of incongruity. If I could have kept
him away by paying money, I certainly would have paid
money. My greatest reassurance was, that he was coming
to Barnard’s Inn, not to Hammersmith, and consequently
would not fall in Bentley Drummle’s way. I had little objec-
tion to his being seen by Herbert or his father, for both of
whom I had a respect; but I had the sharpest sensitiveness
as to his being seen by Drummle, whom I held in contempt.
So, throughout life, our worst weaknesses and meannesses
are usually committed for the sake of the people whom we
most despise.
I had begun to be always decorating the chambers in
some quite unnecessary and inappropriate way or other,
and very expensive those wrestles with Barnard proved to
be. By this time, the rooms were vastly different from what
I had found them, and I enjoyed the honour of occupying a
few prominent pages in the books of a neighbouring uphol-
sterer. I had got on so fast of late, that I had even started a
boy in boots - top boots - in bondage and slavery to whom I
might have been said to pass my days. For, after I had made
the monster (out of the refuse of my washerwoman’s fam-
ily) and had clothed him with a blue coat, canary waistcoat,
white cravat, creamy breeches, and the boots already men-
tioned, I had to find him a little to do and a great deal to eat;
and with both of those horrible requirements he haunted
my existence.
This avenging phantom was ordered to be on duty at
eight on Tuesday morning in the hall (it was two feet
square, as charged for floorcloth), and Herbert suggested
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certain things for breakfast that he thought Joe would like.
While I felt sincerely obliged to him for being so interested
and considerate, I had an odd half-provoked sense of sus-
picion upon me, that if Joe had been coming to see him, he
wouldn’t have been quite so brisk about it.
However, I came into town on the Monday night to be
ready for Joe, and I got up early in the morning, and caused
the sittingroom and breakfast-table to assume their most
splendid appearance. Unfortunately the morning was driz-
zly, and an angel could not have concealed the fact that
Barnard was shedding sooty tears outside the window, like
some weak giant of a Sweep.
As the time approached I should have liked to run away,
but the Avenger pursuant to orders was in the hall, and
presently I heard Joe on the staircase. I knew it was Joe, by
his clumsy manner of coming up-stairs - his state boots be-
ing always too big for him - and by the time it took him to
read the names on the other floors in the course of his as-
cent. When at last he stopped outside our door, I could hear
his finger tracing over the painted letters of my name, and I
afterwards distinctly heard him breathing in at the keyhole.
Finally he gave a faint single rap, and Pepper - such was the
compromising name of the avenging boy - announced ‘Mr.
Gargery!’ I thought he never would have done wiping his
feet, and that I must have gone out to lift him off the mat,
but at last he came in.
‘Joe, how are you, Joe?’
‘Pip, how AIR you, Pip?’
With his good honest face all glowing and shining, and
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his hat put down on the floor between us, he caught both
my hands and worked them straight up and down, as if I
had been the lastpatented Pump.
‘I am glad to see you, Joe. Give me your hat.’
But Joe, taking it up carefully with both hands, like a
bird’s-nest with eggs in it, wouldn’t hear of parting with
that piece of property, and persisted in standing talking
over it in a most uncomfortable way.
‘Which you have that growed,’ said Joe, ‘and that swelled,
and that gentle-folked;’ Joe considered a little before he dis-
covered this word; ‘as to be sure you are a honour to your
king and country.’
‘And you, Joe, look wonderfully well.’
‘Thank God,’ said Joe, ‘I’m ekerval to most. And your sis-
ter, she’s no worse than she were. And Biddy, she’s ever right
and ready. And all friends is no backerder, if not no forarder.
‘Ceptin Wopsle; he’s had a drop.’
All this time (still with both hands taking great care of
the bird’s-nest), Joe was rolling his eyes round and round
the room, and round and round the flowered pattern of my
dressing-gown.
‘Had a drop, Joe?’
‘Why yes,’ said Joe, lowering his voice, ‘he’s left the
Church, and went into the playacting. Which the playacting
have likeways brought him to London along with me. And
his wish were,’ said Joe, getting the bird’s-nest under his left
arm for the moment and groping in it for an egg with his
right; ‘if no offence, as I would ‘and you that.’
I took what Joe gave me, and found it to be the crum-
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pled playbill of a small metropolitan theatre, announcing
the first appearance, in that very week, of ‘the celebrated
Provincial Amateur of Roscian renown, whose unique per-
formance in the highest tragic walk of our National Bard
has lately occasioned so great a sensation in local dramatic
circles.’
‘Were you at his performance, Joe?’ I inquired.
‘I were,’ said Joe, with emphasis and solemnity.
‘Was there a great sensation?’
‘Why,’ said Joe, ‘yes, there certainly were a peck of orange-
peel. Partickler, when he see the ghost. Though I put it to
yourself, sir, whether it were calc’lated to keep a man up to
his work with a good hart, to be continiwally cutting in be-
twixt him and the Ghost with ‘Amen!’ A man may have had
a misfortun’ and been in the Church,’ said Joe, lowering his
voice to an argumentative and feeling tone, ‘but that is no
reason why you should put him out at such a time. Which I
meantersay, if the ghost of a man’s own father cannot be al-
lowed to claim his attention, what can, Sir? Still more, when
his mourning ‘at is unfortunately made so small as that the
weight of the black feathers brings it off, try to keep it on
how you may.’
A ghost-seeing effect in Joe’s own countenance informed
me that Herbert had entered the room. So, I presented Joe
to Herbert, who held out his hand; but Joe backed from it,
and held on by the bird’s-nest.
‘Your servant, Sir,’ said Joe, ‘which I hope as you and Pip’ -
here his eye fell on the Avenger, who was putting some toast
on table, and so plainly denoted an intention to make that
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young gentleman one of the family, that I frowned it down
and confused him more - ‘I meantersay, you two gentlemen
- which I hope as you get your elths in this close spot? For
the present may be a werry good inn, according to London
opinions,’ said Joe, confidentially, ‘and I believe its charac-
ter do stand i; but I wouldn’t keep a pig in it myself - not in
the case that I wished him to fatten wholesome and to eat
with a meller flavour on him.’
Having borne this flattering testimony to the merits of
our dwelling-place, and having incidentally shown this ten-
dency to call me ‘sir,’ Joe, being invited to sit down to table,
looked all round the room for a suitable spot on which to
deposit his hat - as if it were only on some very few rare
substances in nature that it could find a resting place - and
ultimately stood it on an extreme corner of the chimney-
piece, from which it ever afterwards fell off at intervals.
‘Do you take tea, or coffee, Mr. Gargery?’ asked Herbert,
who always presided of a morning.
‘Thankee, Sir,’ said Joe, stiff from head to foot, ‘I’ll take
whichever is most agreeable to yourself.’
‘What do you say to coffee?’
‘Thankee, Sir,’ returned Joe, evidently dispirited by the
proposal, ‘since you are so kind as make chice of coffee, I
will not run contrairy to your own opinions. But don’t you
never find it a little ‘eating?’
‘Say tea then,’ said Herbert, pouring it out.
Here Joe’s hat tumbled off the mantel-piece, and he start-
ed out of his chair and picked it up, and fitted it to the same
exact spot. As if it were an absolute point of good breeding
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that it should tumble off again soon.
‘When did you come to town, Mr. Gargery?’
‘Were it yesterday afternoon?’ said Joe, after coughing
behind his hand, as if he had had time to catch the whoop-
ing-cough since he came. ‘No it were not. Yes it were. Yes. It
were yesterday afternoon’ (with an appearance of mingled
wisdom, relief, and strict impartiality).
‘Have you seen anything of London, yet?’
‘Why, yes, Sir,’ said Joe, ‘me and Wopsle went off straight
to look at the Blacking Ware’us. But we didn’t find that it
come up to its likeness in the red bills at the shop doors;
which I meantersay,’ added Joe, in an explanatory manner,
‘as it is there drawd too architectooralooral.’
I really believe Joe would have prolonged this word
(mightily expressive to my mind of some architecture that
I know) into a perfect Chorus, but for his attention being
providentially attracted by his hat, which was toppling. In-
deed, it demanded from him a constant attention, and a
quickness of eye and hand, very like that exacted by wicket-
keeping. He made extraordinary play with it, and showed
the greatest skill; now, rushing at it and catching it neatly
as it dropped; now, merely stopping it midway, beating it up,
and humouring it in various parts of the room and against
a good deal of the pattern of the paper on the wall, before he
felt it safe to close with it; finally, splashing it into the slop-
basin, where I took the liberty of laying hands upon it.
As to his shirt-collar, and his coat-collar, they were per-
plexing to reflect upon - insoluble mysteries both. Why
should a man scrape himself to that extent, before he could
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consider himself full dressed? Why should he suppose it
necessary to be purified by suffering for his holiday clothes?
Then he fell into such unaccountable fits of meditation,
with his fork midway between his plate and his mouth; had
his eyes attracted in such strange directions; was afflicted
with such remarkable coughs; sat so far from the table, and
dropped so much more than he ate, and pretended that he
hadn’t dropped it; that I was heartily glad when Herbert left
us for the city.
I had neither the good sense nor the good feeling to
know that this was all my fault, and that if I had been easier
with Joe, Joe would have been easier with me. I felt impa-
tient of him and out of temper with him; in which condition
he heaped coals of fire on my head.
‘Us two being now alone, Sir,’ - began Joe.
‘Joe,’ I interrupted, pettishly, ‘how can you call me, Sir?’
Joe looked at me for a single instant with something
faintly like reproach. Utterly preposterous as his cravat was,
and as his collars were, I was conscious of a sort of dignity
in the look.
‘Us two being now alone,’ resumed Joe, ‘and me having
the intentions and abilities to stay not many minutes more,
I will now conclude - leastways begin - to mention what
have led to my having had the present honour. For was it
not,’ said Joe, with his old air of lucid exposition, ‘that my
only wish were to be useful to you, I should not have had
the honour of breaking wittles in the company and abode
of gentlemen.’
I was so unwilling to see the look again, that I made no
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remonstrance against this tone.
‘Well, Sir,’ pursued Joe, ‘this is how it were. I were at the
Bargemen t’other night, Pip;’ whenever he subsided into af-
fection, he called me Pip, and whenever he relapsed into
politeness he called me Sir; ‘when there come up in his shay-
cart, Pumblechook. Which that same identical,’ said Joe,
going down a new track, ‘do comb my ‘air the wrong way
sometimes, awful, by giving out up and down town as it
were him which ever had your infant companionation and
were looked upon as a playfellow by yourself.’
‘Nonsense. It was you, Joe.’
‘Which I fully believed it were, Pip,’ said Joe, slightly toss-
ing his head, ‘though it signify little now, Sir. Well, Pip; this
same identical, which his manners is given to blusterous,
come to me at the Bargemen (wot a pipe and a pint of beer
do give refreshment to the working-man, Sir, and do not
over stimilate), and his word were, ‘Joseph, Miss Havisham
she wish to speak to you.’
‘Miss Havisham, Joe?’
‘ She wish,’ were Pumblechook’s word, ‘to speak to you.’’
Joe sat and rolled his eyes at the ceiling.
‘Yes, Joe? Go on, please.’
‘Next day, Sir,’ said Joe, looking at me as if I were a long
way off, ‘having cleaned myself, I go and I see Miss A.’
‘Miss A., Joe? Miss Havisham?’
‘Which I say, Sir,’ replied Joe, with an air of legal formality,
as if he were making his will, ‘Miss A., or otherways Hav-
isham. Her expression air then as follering: ‘Mr. Gargery.
You air in correspondence with Mr. Pip?’ Having had a let-
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ter from you, I were able to say ‘I am.’ (When I married
your sister, Sir, I said ‘I will;’ and when I answered your
friend, Pip, I said ‘I am.’) ‘Would you tell him, then,’ said
she, ‘that which Estella has come home and would be glad
to see him.’
I felt my face fire up as I looked at Joe. I hope one remote
cause of its firing, may have been my consciousness that if
I had known his errand, I should have given him more en-
couragement.
‘Biddy,’ pursued Joe, ‘when I got home and asked her fur
to write the message to you, a little hung back. Biddy says,
‘I know he will be very glad to have it by word of mouth, it
is holidaytime, you want to see him, go!’ I have now con-
cluded, Sir,’ said Joe, rising from his chair, ‘and, Pip, I wish
you ever well and ever prospering to a greater and a greater
heighth.’
‘But you are not going now, Joe?’
‘Yes I am,’ said Joe.
‘But you are coming back to dinner, Joe?’
‘No I am not,’ said Joe.
Our eyes met, and all the ‘Sir’ melted out of that manly
heart as he gave me his hand.
‘Pip, dear old chap, life is made of ever so many partings
welded together, as I may say, and one man’s a blacksmith,
and one’s a whitesmith, and one’s a goldsmith, and one’s a
coppersmith. Diwisions among such must come, and must
be met as they come. If there’s been any fault at all to-day,
it’s mine. You and me is not two figures to be together in
London; nor yet anywheres else but what is private, and be-
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known, and understood among friends. It ain’t that I am
proud, but that I want to be right, as you shall never see me
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