Chapter Twenty-Three

Nothing happens until lunchtime the next day.

I make the breakfast for Trish and Eddie as usual. I hoover and dust as usual. Then I put on Iriss apron, get out the chopping board, and start squeezing oranges. Im going to make bitter chocolate and orange mousse for the charity lunch tomorrow. Were going to serve it on a bed of crystallized orange slices, and each plate is going to be garnished with a real silver-​leaf angel from a Christmas-​decoration catalog.

This was Trishs idea. As are the angels hanging from the ceiling.

How are we doing? Trish comes tapping into the kitchen, looking flustered. Have you made the mousses yet?

Not yet, I say, briskly squeezing an orange. Mrs. Geiger, dont worry. Its all under control.

Do you know what Ive been through, the last few days? She clutches her head. More and more people keep accepting. Ive had to change the seating plan...

Itll be fine, I say soothingly. Try to relax.

Yes. She sighs, holding her head between two lacquered fingernails. Youre right. Ill just go and check the goody bags...

I cannot believe how much Trish is spending on this lunch. Every time I question whether we really need to canopy the dining room in white silk or give every guest an orchid buttonhole, she shrills, Its all in a good cause!

Which reminds me of something Ive been meaning to ask her for quite a while now.

Er... Mrs. Geiger, I say casually. Are you charging your guests for entrance to the lunch?

Oh, no! she says. I think thats rather tacky , dont you?

Are you holding a raffle?

I dont think so. She wrinkles her nose. People loathe raffles.

I hardly dare ask this next question.

So... um... how exactly are you planning on making money for Save The Children?

Theres silence in the kitchen. Trish has frozen, her eyes wide.

Bugger , she says at last.

I knew it. She hadnt given it a thought. Somehow I manage to keep my respectful housekeepers expression.

Perhaps we could ask for voluntary donations? I suggest. We could hand round a little bag with the coffee and mints?

Yes.Yes. Trish peers at me as though Im a genius. Thats the answer. She exhales sharply. This is really very stressful, Samantha. I dont know how you stay so calm.

Oh... I dont know. I feel a sudden wave of fondness for her. When I arrived back at the house last night it was like coming home. Even though Trish had left a mountain of dirty crockery on the counter for my return, and a note saying, Samantha, please polish all silver for luncheon .

Trish heads out of the kitchen and I start whisking up egg whites for the mousse. Then I notice a man sidling down the drive. Hes wearing jeans and an old polo shirt and has a camera slung round his neck. He disappears from view and I frown in puzzlement. Maybe hes a deliveryman. I measure out the caster sugar, with half an ear out for the doorbell, and start folding it into the egg whites, just the way Iris taught me. Then suddenly the man is standing at the kitchen door, peering in through the window.

Im not ruining my mixture for some door-​to-​door salesman. He can wait a few moments. I finish folding in the sugarthen head to the door and open it.

Can I help? I say politely.

Are you Samantha Sweeting? he says, glancing down at a folded-​up tabloid newspaper in his hand.

I look back at him warily. Why?

Im from the Cheltenham Gazette . He flashes an ID card at me. Im after an exclusive interview with you. Why I Chose the Cotswolds as My Secret Hideaway. That kind of thing.

I look at him blankly for a few seconds.

Er... what are you talking about?

You havent seen it? He looks surprised. Havent your friends been on the phone?

No. At least, I dont know, I say, confused. My mobile phones upstairs in my bedroom. If it has been ringing, I havent heard it.

I take it this is you? He turns the newspaper round and my stomach seizes up.

Its a picture of me. In the Daily World . A national tabloid.

Its my official Carter Spink portrait. Im wearing a black suit and my hair is screwed up. Above it, in bold black letters, is the headline: ID RATHER CLEAN LOOS THAN BE A PARTNER AT CARTER SPINK.

What the hell is going on? With trembling hands I grab the paper from the guy and scan the text.

They are the Masters of the Universe, the envy of their peers. Top law firm Carter Spink is the most prestigious in the country. But yesterday one young woman turned down a high-​ranking post as partner in order to work as a humble housekeeper.

GET A LIFE

Partners were left with egg on their faces as star £500-an-​hour lawyer Samantha

Sweeting rejected their offer, which carried a substantial six-​figure salary. Having previously been fired, the high-​flyer apparently uncovered a financial scandal at the firm. However, when offered full equity partnership, Sweeting cited the pressure and lack of free time as reason for her decision.

Ive got used to having a life, she said, as partners begged her to stay.

A former Carter Spink employee who declined to be named confirmed the brutal working conditions of the legal firm. They expect you to sell your soul, he said. I had to resign from stress. No wonder she prefers manual labor.

A spokeswoman for Carter Spink defended the firms practices. We are a flexible, modern firm with a sympathetic working ethos. We would like to talk to Samantha about her views and would certainly not expect employees to sell their soul.

VANISHED

She confirmed that Ms. Sweetings job offer is still open and Carter Spink partners are anxious to talk to her. However, in a further extraordinary twist, this modern-​day Cinderella has not been seen since running away from the offices.

WHERE IS SHE?

See comment, page 34.

I peer at it in a daze. See comment? Theres more ? With fumbling hands I turn to page 34.

THE PRICE OF SUCCESS-​TOO HIGH?

A high-​flying lawyer with everything ahead of her gives up a six-​figure salary and turns to domestic drudgery instead. What does this story say about todays high-​pressure

society? Are our career women being pushed too hard? Are they burning out? Does this extraordinary story herald the start of a new trend?

One thing is for certain. Only Samantha Sweeting can answer.

I stare at the page, numb. How didwhat did How ? A flash interrupts me and I lift my head to see the guy pointing his camera at me. Stop! I say, putting my hands up in front of my face.

Can I have a picture of you holding a toilet brush, love? he says, zooming his lens in. It was a waitress inCheltenham pointed me in the right direction. Reckoned shed worked with you. Quite a scoop! The camera flashes again and I flinch.

No! You... youve made a mistake! I shove the paper back at him in a mess of pages. My names Sarah. Im not a lawyer. Whatever that waitress said... she was wrong.

The journalist looks at me suspiciously, and down at the photo again. I can see a flicker of doubt cross his face. I do look fairly different now from the way I did then, with my blond hair and everything.

Please leave, I say. My employers wont like it. I wait until he steps off the doorstep, then slam the door shut and turn the key. Then I pull the curtain across the window and lean back against the door, my heart thudding. Fuck. Fuck. What am I going to do?

OK. The important thing is not to panic. The important thing is to stay rational.

On the one hand, my entire past has been exposed in a national tabloid. On the other hand, Trish and Eddie dont read that particular tabloid. Or the CheltenhamGazette . Its one silly story in one silly paper and it will die away by tomorrow. Theres no reason to tell them anything. Theres no need to rock the boat. Ill just carry on making my chocolate-​orange mousses as though nothing has happened. Yes. Total denial is the way forward.

Feeling slightly better, I reach for the chocolate and start breaking chunks into a glass bowl.

Samantha! Who was that? Trish pokes her head round the door.

No one. I look up with a fixed smile. Nothing. Why dont I make you a cup of coffee and bring it out to the garden?

Keep calm. Denial. Itll all be fine.

OK. Denials not going to work, because there are three more journalists in the drive.

Its twenty minutes later. Ive abandoned my chocolate mousses and am peering out the hall window in rising dismay. Two blokes and a girl have appeared out of nowhere. They all have cameras and are chatting to the guy in the polo shirt, whos gesticulating toward the kitchen. Occasionally one of them breaks off and takes a shot of the house. Any minute one of them is going to ring the doorbell.

I cannot let this develop. I need a new plan. I need...

Diversion. Yes. At least it might buy me some time.

I head to the front door, grabbing one of Trishs floppy straw hats on the way. Then I cautiously step outside and make my way down the gravel drive to the entrance, where the four journalists crowd around me.

Are you Samantha Sweeting? says one, thrusting a tape recorder in my face.

Do you regret turning down partnership? demands another.

My names Sarah, I say, keeping my head down. Youve got the wrong girl. Kindly leave the premises at once.

I wait for the stampede, but no one moves.

Youve all made a mistake! I try again. If you dont leave... Ill call the police.

One of the journalists peers under the brim of Irishs hat. Its her, he says scornfully. Ned, its her! Come over here!

Shes there! Shes come out!

Its her!

I hear voices from across the streetand, aghast, I see another load of journalists suddenly appear, hurrying down the road toward the gates, bearing cameras and Dictaphones.

Fuck. Where did they come from?

Ms. Sweeting, Angus Watts. Daily Express . Black-​glasses guy lifts up his microphone. Do you have a message for young women of today?

Do you really enjoy cleaning toilets? chimes in someone else, snapping a camera in my face. What brand of toilet cleaner do you use?

Stop it! I say, flustered. Leave me alone! I haul at the iron gates until theyre closed, then turn and run up the drive, into the house and into the kitchen.

What am I going to do? What?

I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirrored fridge. My face is flushed and my expression wild. Im also still wearing Trishs floppy straw hat.

I grab it off my head and dump it on the table, just as Trish comes into the kitchen. Shes holding a book called Your Elegant Luncheon Party and an empty coffee cup.

Do you know whats going on, Samantha? she says. There seems a bit of a commotion outside in the road.

Is there? I say. I... I hadnt noticed.

It looks like a protest. She wrinkles her brow. I do hope theyre not still there tomorrow. Protesters are so selfish ... Her eye falls on the counter. Havent you finished the mousses yet? Samantha, really! What have you been doing ?

Um... nothing! I reach for the bowl and start doling out chocolate mixture into molds. Im just getting on with them, Mrs. Geiger.

I feel like Im in some kind of parallel reality. Everythings going to come out. Its a matter of time. What do I do?

Have you seen this protest? Trish demands as Eddie saunters into the kitchen. Outside our gates! I think we should tell them to move on.

Its not a protest, he says, opening the fridge and peering inside. Its journalists.

Journalists ? Trish peers at him. What on earth would journalists be doing here?

Maybe we have a new celebrity neighbor? suggests Eddie, pouring his beer into a glass. At once Trish claps her hand over her mouth.

Joanna Lumley! I heard a rumor she was buying in the village! Samantha, have you heard anything about this?

I... er... no, I mumble, my face burning. I have to say something. But what? Where do I start?

Samantha, I need this shirt ironed by tonight. Melissa comes wandering into the kitchen, holding a sleeveless print shirt. And be really careful with the collar, OK? Whats going on outside?

Nobody knows, says Trish, looking beside herself. But we think its Joanna Lumley!

Suddenly the doorbell rings. For a moment I consider bolting out the back door.

I wonder if thats them! exclaims Trish. Eddie, go and answer it. Samantha, put on some coffee. She looks at me in impatience. Come on!

I need to explain but Im totally paralyzed.

Samantha? She peers at me. Are you all right?

With an almighty effort I look up.

Urn... Mrs. Geiger... My voice comes out a nervous husk. Theres... theres something... I ought to

Melissa! Eddies voice interrupts me.Hes hurrying into the kitchen, a huge smile spread across his face. Melissa, love! They want you!

Me ? Melissa looks up in surprise. What do you mean, Uncle Eddie? Its the Daily Mail . They want to interview you! Eddie turns to Trish, glowing with

pride. Did you know that our Melissa has one of the finest legal brains in the country? Oh, no. Oh, no. What? Trish nearly drops her copy of Your Elegant Luncheon Party .

Thats what they said! Eddie nods. They said it might come as quite a surprise to me to learn we had such a highflying lawyer in the house. I said, nonsense! He puts an arm around Melissa. Weve always known you were a star!

Mrs. Geiger... I say urgently. No one takes any notice of me. It must be that prize I won at law school! They must have heard about it somehow!

Melissa is gasping. Oh, my God! The Daily Mail ! They want to take photos too! puts in Eddie. They want an exclusive! I need to put on some makeup! Melissa looks totally flustered. How do I look? Here we are! Trish wrenches open her handbag. Heres some mascara... and

lipstick...

I have to stop this. I have to break it to them.

Mr. Geiger... I clear my throat. Are you sure... I mean, did they ask for Melissa by... by name?

They didnt need to! He twinkles at me. Only one lawyer in this house!

Make some coffee, Samantha, instructs Trish sharply. And use the pink cups. Quickly! Wash them up.

The thing is... I have... I have something to tell you. Not now , Samantha! Wash up those cups! Trish thrusts the rubber gloves at me. I

dont know whats wrong with you today But I dont think theyve come to see Melissa, I say desperately. Theres something

I... I should have told you.

No one pays any attention. Theyre all focused on Melissa.

How do I look? Melissa smooths her hair back selfconsciously.

Lovely, darling! Trish leans forward. Just a touch more lipstick. Make you look really glamorous...

Is she ready for the interview? An unfamiliar womans voice comes from the kitchen door and everyone freezes in excitement.

In here! Eddie pulls open the door to reveal a dark-​haired, middle-​aged woman in a trouser suit, whose eyes immediately run appraisingly over the kitchen.

Heres our legal star! Eddie gestures to Melissa with a beam of pride.

Hello. Melissa tosses back her hair, then steps forward with an outstretched hand. Im Melissa Hurst.

The woman looks at Melissa blankly for a few moments. Not her, she says. Her. And she points at me.

In puzzled silence, everyone turns to stare at me. Melissas eyes have narrowed to deepest suspicion. I can see the Geigers exchanging glances.

Thats Samantha, says Trish, looking perplexed. The housekeeper.

Youre Samantha Sweeting, I take it? The woman brings out her reporters pad. Can I ask you a few questions?

You want to interview the housekeeper ? says Melissa, with a sarcastic laugh. The journalist ignores her.

You are Samantha Sweeting, arent you? she persists. I... yes, I admit at last. But I dont want to do an interview. I dont have any

comment.

Comment ? Trishs eyes dart around uncertainly. Comment on what?

Whats going on, Samantha, love? Eddie looks anxious. Are you in some kind of trouble?

You havent told them? The Daily Mail journalist looks up from her notepad. They have no idea?

Told us what? says Trish, agitated. What?

Shes an illegal immigrant! says Melissa in tones of triumph. I knew it! I knew there was something

Your housekeeper is a top City lawyer. The woman throws down a copy of the Daily World onto the kitchen table. And shes just turned down a six-​figure partnership to work for you.

Its as though someones thrown a grenade into the kitchen. Eddie visibly reels. Trish totters on her high-​heeled clogs and grabs a chair for balance. Melissas face looks like a popped balloon.

I meant to tell you. I bite my lip awkwardly as I look round the faces. I was... getting round to it...

Trishs eyes are bulging as she reads the Daily World headline. Her mouth is opening and closing, but no sound is coming out.

Youre a... a lawyer ? she stutters at last. Not just any old lawyer, chimes in the journalist, consulting her notes. Highest law

degree of her year... youngest ever partner of Carter Spink Youre a partner at Carter Spink? stutters Melissa. No! I say. I mean... well... kind of... Can I make anyone a cup of tea? I add

desperately.

No one is interested in tea.

Did you have any idea your housekeeper has an IQ of 158? The journalist is clearly loving this. Shes a genius.

We knew she was bright! says Eddie, defensive. We spotted that! We were helping her with her He breaks off, looking foolish. With her English GCSE.

And Im really grateful! I put in hurriedly. Really.

Eddie mops his brow with a tea towel. Trish is still clutching the chair as though she might keel over any minute.

I dont understand. Eddie suddenly puts the tea towel down and turns to me. How did you combine being a lawyer with the housekeeping?

Yes! exclaims Trish, coming to life. Exactly. How on earth could you be a City lawyer... and still have time to train with Michel dela Roux dela Blanc ?

Oh, God. They still dont get it.

Im not really a housekeeper, I say desperately. Im not really a Cordon Bleu cook. Michel dela Roux dela Blanc doesnt exist. I have no idea what this thing is really called. I pick up the truffle beater, which is lying on the side. Im a... a fake.

I cant look at either of them. Suddenly I feel terrible. Ill understand if you want me to leave, I mumble. I took the job under false pretenses.

Leave? Trish looks horrified. We dont want you to leave! Do we, Eddie?

Absolutely not! he says, rallying himself. Youve done a fine job, Samantha. You cant help it if youre a lawyer.

Im a fake, says the journalist, writing it carefully down on her notepad. Do you feel guilty about that, Ms. Sweeting?

Stop it! I say. Im not doing an interview!

Ms. Sweeting says shed rather clean loos than be a partner at Carter Spink, says the journalist, turning to Trish. Could I see the loos in question?

Our loos? Spots of pink appear on Trishs cheeks and she gives me an uncertain glance. Well! We did have the bathrooms refitted recently; theyre all Royal Doulton.

How many are there? The journalist looks up from her notepad.

Stop this! I clutch my hair. Look, Ill... Ill make a statement to the press. And then I want you all to leave me and my employers alone.

I hurry out of the kitchen, the Daily Mail woman following behind, and fling open the front door. The crowd of journalists is still there, behind the gate. Is it my imagination or are there more than before?

Its Sarah, says the guy in black glasses sardonically as I approach them.

Ladies and gentlemen of the press, I begin. I would be grateful if you would leave me alone. There isnt any story here.

Are you going to stay as a housekeeper? calls a fat guy in jeans.

Yes, I am. I lift my chin. Ive made a personal choice, for personal reasons, and Im very happy here.

What about feminism? demands a young girl. Women have fought for years to gain an equal foothold. Now youre telling them they should go back to the kitchen?

Im not telling women anything! I say, taken aback. Im just leading my own life.

But you think theres nothing wrong with women being chained to the kitchen sink? A gray-​haired woman glares at me.

Im not chained! I get paid for what I do, and I choose to My answer is drowned out by a barrage of questions and flashing cameras.

Was Carter Spink a sexist hellhole?

Is this a bargaining ploy?

Do you think women should have careers?

Wed like to offer you a regular column on household hints! says a chirpy blond girl in a blue mac. We want to call it Samantha Says.

What ? I gape at her. I dont have any household hints! A recipe, then? She beams. Your favorite dish? Could you pose for us in your pinny? calls out the fat guy, with a lascivious wink. No! I say in horror. I have nothing else to say! No comment! Go away!

Ignoring the cries and shouts of Samantha! I turn and run with trembling legs back up the drive to the house.

The world is mad. I burst into the kitchen, to find Trish, Eddie, and Melissa transfixed in front of the Daily

World . Oh, no, I say, my heart plunging. Dont read it. Honestly. Its just... stupid...

tabloid...

All three of them raise their heads and regard me as though Im some kind of alien.

You charge... five hundred pounds an hour? Trish doesnt seem quite in control of her voice.

They offered you full equity partnership? Melissa looks green. And you said no ? Are you crazy ?

Dont read this stuff! I try to grab the paper. Mrs. Geiger, I just want to carry on as usual. Im still your housekeeper

Youre one of the countrys top legal talents! Trish jabs the paper hysterically. It says so, here!

Samantha? Theres a rapping at the door and Nathaniel comes into the kitchen, holding an armful of newly picked potatoes. Will this be enough for the lunch?

I stare at him dumbly, feeling a clutch at my heart. He has no idea. He knows nothing. Oh, God.

I should have told him. Why didnt I tell him? Why didnt I tell him ? What are you? says Trish, turning to him wildly. A top rocket scientist? A secret

government agent?

Im sorry? Nathaniel shoots me a quizzical look.

Nathaniel...

I trail off, unable to continue. Nathaniel looks from face to face, a crease of uncertainty deepening in his brow.

Whats going on? he says at last. Is something up?

I have never made such a hash of anything as I make of telling Nathaniel. I stammer, I stutter, I repeat myself and go round in circles.

Nathaniel listens in silence. Hes leaning against an old stone pillar in front of the secluded bench where Im sitting. His face is in profile, shadowed in the afternoon sun, and I cant tell what hes thinking.

At last I come to a finish and he slowly lifts his head. If I was hoping for a smile, I dont get it. Ive never seen him look so shell-​shocked.

Youre a lawyer, he says at last. All the light seems to have gone out of his eyes.

Yes.

I cant believe youre a lawyer. Theres a hostility to his tone that Ive never heard before.

Nathaniel. I swallow hard. I know you had a bad experience with lawyers. Im really sorry about your dad. But... Im not like that. You know Im not

How do I? he retorts with sudden aggression. How do I know who you are anymore? You lied to me.

I didnt lie! I just... didnt tell you everything.

I thought you were in an abusive relationship. He bows his head, clenching his hands behind his neck. I thought thats why you didnt want to talk about your past. And you let me believe it. When you went up toLondon , I was worried about you. Jesus.

Im sorry. I wince with guilt. Im so sorry. I just... didnt want you to know the truth.

Why not? What, you didnt trust me?

No! I say in dismay. Of course I trust you! If it had been anything else... Nathaniel, you have to understand. When we first met, how could I tell you? Everyone knows you hate lawyers. You even have a sign in your pub!

That signs a joke . He makes an impatient gesture. Its not. Not completely! Come on, Nathaniel. If Id told you I was a City lawyer when

we first met, would you have treated me in the same way? Nathaniel doesnt reply. Hes taken a few steps away and turned to face the house, as if

he cant even bear to look at me anymore.

Its all ruined between us. Just as I feared. I can feel the tears rising but somehow keep my chin steady.

Nathaniel, I didnt tell you the truth about myself because it was incredibly painful, I say quietly. And because everything was so wonderful between us, I didnt want to ruin it. And because... I thought you might look at me differently.

Nathaniel slowly turns to face me, his face still closed and unforgiving.

Like youre looking at me now. A tear runs down my cheek and I brush it away. This is what I was afraid of.

The silence seems to last forever. Then Nathaniel exhales heavily, as though coming to a conclusion.

Come here. He holds out his arms. Come here.

He wraps them around me and I lean against his chest, almost overcome with relief.

Im the same person, you know, I mumble. Even if I used to be a lawyerIm still me. Samantha.

Samantha Sweeting, corporate lawyer. He surveys me for a few moments. Nope. I cant see it.

Me either! That part of my life is over. Nathaniel... Im so sorry. I never meant any of this to happen. A bay leaf falls into his hair from the tree behind and I pick it out, automatically rubbing it to release the sweet scent.

So what happens now? says Nathaniel.

Nothing. The media interest will die down. Theyll get bored. I rest my head on his shoulder. Im happy in my job. Im happy in this village. Im happy with you. I just want everything to stay the same.

Date: 2015-02-03; view: 666